Maybe I will never forget about you

I dont know when my life got so complicated - actually no, that is a lie. I know exactly when my life got complicated. It all started when I left my now ex boyfriend, when I said goodbye to my best friend, when I decided to start going after things in my life that I think are important and that matter to me. Things started getting complicated when I finally decided to put myself first. But now that I am, I feel so insanely alone and vulnerable. I know I made the right decision but all of the late night dinners alone are making it hard to bare.