Dating A.D.D.

My most favorite thing of all time is to spend my days driving in my car with the windows rolled down and jaming out to my favorite song of the day. Somedays I will drive all day, come home and try to realx and read a book or cook supper but I always find my feet pounding the hardwood a little harder than necessary and i know that my body is killing for a fix. Just one more ride around the block, down by the river, just one more turn with my foot pressed down against the peddle.

I have been such a happy girl lately. I know deep down there are some sappy parts of me that try to push their way through to the surface but I don't care to let that surface. I am a brave girl. It doesnt matter what you should have said, what you want to say now - it just doesn't matter. When you walked out that door, hung up that telephone, walked away from me - I did the same to you.

The funny thing is that I am a bit of a wild girl lately. I have come to the conclusion that I have Dating A.D.D. I can't help it. I spent three years in a miserable relationship and all I want to do is bask in the glory of every man's love. I am addicted to lust I suppose. The tricky part though is when the men don't realize that I don't want to settle down. Things can get messy if you're not careful. And thats my problem. I am too careless and free to be careful. I'm sorry if i break your heart but I'm not looking for love - just a good time. I just want to party, I just want to love everyone. I just want to kiss and not care, I want to dance and not care, I want to spend the night with you and not care. I'm sorry gentlemen but please stop trying to contain me - I am not meant to be tied down, I am meant to love with no rules, no boundaries. Just let me be who I am.