Clarity

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I always knew that it would be hard to say goodbye... ten years is a long friendship. But if I am brutally honest with myself, I would know that the past 4 years have not been good years. Of course there have been good memories at points but when I am absolutely honest, I know that this break is needed. I feel like I am breaking up with a great love-and in a way, I am. I have loved you as a best friend, as a sister. I know I have made the right decision but it isn't easy to stand by. I know that you were not as good as you should have been. You were not sincere and honest. Maybe I wasnt always the friend that you needed/wanted but damnit, I tried. I know I have made the right decision but that doesn't mean it isnt hard. Don't think that it doesnt break my heart to sit here knowing that I am throwing away all of those memories, but it had to be done. Our friendship was like a poison, eating at ourselves we were slowly turning into people that I know neither of us would be proud of.

Some quotes that are on my mind:

"It's weird, you know the end of something great is coming, but you want to hold on, just one more second just so it can hurt you a little more." - Unknown.

"The hardest part of loving someone is to know when to let go and when to say goodbye." - Unknown.

"The ultimate test of a relationship is to disagree but to hold hands." - Unknown.

I will not forget our friendship and all of our memories, but for now I will put all of those into a small little box, lock it, and hide it under the mass amount of other thoughts on my mind. Know that this isnt easy but it is for the best. We need to stop trying to glue the pieces back together. This friendship just needed to come to an end.

Sincerely,

Having trouble closing the book.