12.11.2012

" I don't love myself because I love my life. I love my life because I love me"

It wasn't easy but I did it.  All these years of hanging onto these negative memories, of these unresolved feelings and resentment that I have let sit in my heart finally came to a bust.  For far too long I let these negative emotions take up room in my heart where happiness was meant to reside.  I finally got the slap that I needed to knock some sense it to me and for her I will forever be grateful.  I don't know if it was the timing or the brashness of the conversation but I finally got it.  Carrying all of these negative feelings were keeping me running amuck on a destructive cycle.

I finally took the time to sit down and reminice over my past and what has led me to the place I am today.  I thought about each realtionship I have experienced and instead of blaming everyone but myself I took responsibility for my actions as well.  I feel as though a gigantic weight has been lifted from my shoulders.  I feel at ease, a sense of closure, and an overwelming feeling of happiness and excitement.

I feel ready to fully embark on this new journey.  I am surrounded by so much love and support.  I honestly feel like the luckiest girl in the world.  



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