It's too late

I understand, I do, I understand that I recklessly flirted with you, led you to believe that I may have wanted something that deep down I knew I did not want. I understand that by doing this you thought it was safe to put yourself out there. I understand that your ego was bruised when you went in for a kiss and I pushed you away, giggled, and left. I understand that it was not fair. I understand I ruined everything. But what I can't wrap my heart around is that you are now gone - moved provinces away without returning my phone calls, without saying goodbye. You left, you left me with nothing but a broken heart, and I know I deserve it but it doesn't make it hurt any bit less.