I don't want to do it without you..

I'm having trouble with letting things run their course and letting go. I thought I was doing okay - or as good as could be given the circumstances. Somehow I managed to hold my head up, to throw on a sexy dress and go out for a night on the town with the girls. Somehow I found the strength to forget you for a night and just let loose and enjoy myself. What are the chances that we both end up at the same place? Seriously???!!! SERIOUSLY!!! Give me a fucking break. We see eachother and your sad sad eyes melt my soul. When you mouthed hello to me my heart shattered. I mustered up some courage to say it back and when i thought i would stop and try to maintain a normal little chat with you my legs took off with my heart laying at your feet. All of a sudden the moment was gone. I don't know if i will ever hear from you again. I deleted your number from my phone so even if I feel tempted to call (all the time) I can't. I hope that things will get better for you soon because living without you is breaking my heart and I simply don't want to do it without you..