I wish you would have just left me alone...

I feel like I am falling apart quicker then i can lace my heart back up.

I was fine on my own.

I was fine picking up the pieces from the last of my broken heart.

I would have been fine without you in my life.

But here you come into my life, you wrap yourself up in my sheets; in my heart, you speak words of love that one can only dream of, you hold me in a way that my heart melts down through my body and out the tips of my toes, you kiss me in a way that is so gentle that i fear i will never fully taste you, you touch me in a way that makes my body shiver and ache for a moment more.

And just as I finally start to feel that I could trust you, that you truly could sweep away all of my horrible heartache memories, that you truly will take care of me and find a way to love me in the most genuine way, you leave.

Just like that you are gone - gone back to your past love, a love you said you were through with, a love that made me think very carefully before pulling down my guard for you, and you reassured me through it all that with me is where you wanted to be.

Fuck you is what i want to scream at the top of my lungs, fuck you for letting me play a fool - fuck you for making me feel safe enough to take down my guard.

But.

Because I am I, I will forever sulk in the privacy of my own torture. I will hurt alone and be alone while you find happiness and forget about me. I am heartbroken for a man i never even knew i cared so much about.

I wish you would have just left me alone.