I simply want you.

Here i sit, ill as ever, and I wonder am I making myself ill? Am I in some twisted way allowing my body to call it quits on me? I sit wondering. I sit basking in the glory of our last few days together and then moments later I find myself in tears and feeling the unbelivable pang of fear that those moments were just moments and that I am always alone in the end.

Why am I always falling for him? Why as soon as I feel I can stand alone again that I fall all over again for him. Does that make me a fool? I feel like I am letting myself walk right off of the edge into the arms of a broken heart and I can't stop myself.

When we are alone I know right where I want to be. I could lay forever tangled in my bedroom sheets with you, tracing my dreams onto your skin, pressing my love deep into your lips. To be alone with you, its all i want, to be alone with you away from here just the two of us.

I feel so confused and so settled all in the same moment - I thought I knew i didn't want a relationship and maybe that is true, i don't want the title, i don't want all of the 'responsibilities' and 'rules' that come along with it, i simply want you.