I want you and therefore I am going to forget about you.

Maybe no matter how much we want something or think we want something, or someone for that matter - maybe all it takes is forgetting that you want it and thats when it will come looking for you.

Don't follow your dreams; chase them.

I simply love life. My life. I am so happy and excited about everything going on in my life. We spend so much of our time letting ourselves get caught up in the drama and worrying about a thousand different things when the truth is we are loosing valuable moments and expereiences. Stop worrying. Stop thinking. Start living. One of my best friends recently got a tatoo and part of it says 'start the music' which pretty much means start living. I love it. Why focus on all of the things that will eventually just unfold for us. Just live. Do what you want, say what you want, feel what you want. Don't pretend to not want things you do want, don't hold back saying something when you feel passionately about something. Just live. Take those leaps.

Sometimes people change, sometimes into people you respect more and sometimes people turn into individuals you do not respect at all. Sometimes people surprise you and want to stir trouble up in your life. It simply does not matter to me. If you want to hurt me, or cause drama of any kind then friend, meet door, door say goodbye to drama. You do not belong in my life. My life is a happiness only zone, it's a drama free zone and any of your bullshit you want to bring in is not welcome. So I apologise for the harshness but there is no place for you in my life.

The people that I love I love full heartedly, the things that I do I do because I am passionate about them, I have really turned over a new leaf in my life - surround yourself by positivity and positive things and people will find you.

Do something today that you love, tell someone you love them, listen to a song that makes you feel beautiful, dance, and fall asleep reading something you love.

Confident In Lifes Bliss

With all of the things going on in my life I am amazed that I have still found a way to hold my head up. I love my second job - its the perfect 'up' of my day - everyone is so happy and its just a great vibe. It does not feel like work at all, its simply somewhere where I want to go! I also will be working the premiere wine festival coming up which i could not possibly be more excited for. And my best friend is coming to visit - for only one day - but i could not be more thrilled. I miss her SOO much.

Life is just pretty grand right now - keeping busy but keeping happy. Also I am pretty sure that my ex boyfriend now has a new girlfriend and suprisingly it does not bother me in the least. :) despite our crappy relationship I do wish a good future for him and I do hope that he finds someone who can love him for him.

Don't Worry About It

I am learning to let the other shoe drop. I have faith that things will work out and no matter what I say or do, life will unfold the way it should. So here goes, free falling, I'm letting the other shoe drop.

The simplicity of the truth

This is just too true.

"We lose the people we love because they are meant to love someone else. We lose them because we are destined to find somebody else. It is a simple fact that is sometimes hard to accept because we are too stubborn to let go of something that doesn't belong to us anymore."

Whatever you want to do, do it now. For life is time and time is all there is.

I feel on top of the world.

I am an independent free spirit.

Stop trying to tie me down.

Just let me be.

Let me celebrate.

Just come party with me.

Tonight is for passionate hook ups,

So leave your relationship hook at home.

Maybe I will never forget about you

I dont know when my life got so complicated - actually no, that is a lie. I know exactly when my life got complicated. It all started when I left my now ex boyfriend, when I said goodbye to my best friend, when I decided to start going after things in my life that I think are important and that matter to me. Things started getting complicated when I finally decided to put myself first. But now that I am, I feel so insanely alone and vulnerable. I know I made the right decision but all of the late night dinners alone are making it hard to bare.

It's not fair

It doesn't seem fair. I don't know how to get out of feeling so sad - somehow I found myself down the bloody rabbit hole once again, clawing for a way to find the happy surface again. Why is it that I always tend to let myself slip so far away? I am so stressed about so many things - I know everyone is. What I struggle with is having my best girl friend living out of province, and my best guy friend living on the other side of the country, and my ex love, ex best friend, ex person who i confided in for 3.5 years where we spoke literally every single day, is someone who I don't speak to at all. I know its not fair to him but I desperately want to call him up and just talk to him, just have someone that i can pour all of my thoughts and worries into him simply because I need someone to fall into and have hold me. I just need to feel the strenght of someone.